My Name Is える

That’s the song i heard this morning. . . a good song where
there’s one vocal and bitter piano . . instrument. . .

well.. today i found the lyrics, and the rough translation . . .
it turns out that the lyrics is about my current situation he he he . . .

watashi nara, daijoubu isogashiku shiteru kara
I’ll be all right Because I can keep busy

ganbatte iru yo sou, yakusoku shita kara demo kyuu ni, nakitaku naru keredo

I’m always hanging on
Yes, because of the promise you made
But now, I don’t want to cry anymore

kimi to wakarete kara subete ga kawatta mitai de toori sugiru kaze no nioi mo chikatetsu no zattou mo
Because we’re far apart
It seems as though everything has changed
Even the scent of the breeze that passes me by
And the crowds of people on the subway

machigai ja, nakatta yo ne? kasaneatte ita setsunasa mo subete ima wa mada, omoide to yobenai kuchibiru ni nukumori ga kienai uchi wa . . .
It wasn’t a mistake, was it?
All those times we met…everything was suffocating me
Even now, I just cannot call up those memories
The warmth of your lips just won’t disappear…

kimi wa itsumo muri suru kara taisetsu na mono wo miushinaun da yo
kondo mata dareka ai suru toki mou ichido ano koro wo omoidashite ne
Because you always push yourself
You lose sight of what is dear to you
And now, if there comes a time when you love another
Just once more, remember that time

itsuka kimi to deaeru hi wa
taiyou no you ni hohoendeitai . . .
Someday, I want to smile again
Like the sun on the day when I met you…

To all the people who’ve been there for me Thank You. . .

I’m Sorry. . .

Do you know, i finally barely reach my common sense
and try to reach what i really want

So then i do what my common sense with clear vision
and steady mind. . .

So I do the “important” SMS, and then i get the reply…

You know what’s going on ? my HP hang.. the keypad jammed,
on my HP screen i can read “2 new messages arrived”, but I
can’t read the content :(( :((

So i bought the new Hand phone… but i still can’t read the frickin’ message since it’s
saved on the old hand phone..

What is going on my graduation, just some sad but happy day
that is great. . . well.. maybe it’s the last day you’ll met all of your friend…
so graduation day is a farewell day too. . .

Well.. it’s happen around November 2007, where me and anova take a flight to Bandung to be there on our graduation day. . . it’s a short flight and a short moment… I miss Bandung so much, but too bad the challenge at work won’t let
me spent too much time there

On Graduation Day,
All of my friend was joined there With black and blue robe. . . be prepared to
face the real world. . . I can see a happy but sad glint on their face… happy because they can end these fight in school, sad because they’re no longer
students

Black and Blue robe. . .

And today will be the day i won’t forget… where today will be a step stone for me to reach my dream

Even though it will change me forever…
Even though I will regret my decision…

a day of us…

the first but maybe last day we look like this. . .

To all my friend..
Thank you to understand that I need you all…

At night i met my sisters :D, they’re my younger brothers and sisters… they who always full of respect… to said farewell (even though it is very unplanned…),
thank you Nis, Vir, Nov, Dit, Rif, Cen, Ed, Suf
Thank you to understand, that we need cheering smiles…

@ night . . .

And not long after that…

@night too . . .

the farewell is closed by my dearly friends to play DoTA..
(and looks like they’re suprised by how well we play :P) too bad Debut can’t be there… there’s Jack, Anova, Aris and Cupu Bros…
(too bad can’t take a picture of them.. i forgot…)

Thank you to understand that I need this war…

And then I take a flight to Bali on sunday night…
I will miss you all…

People said that stupid people won’t last long ? I was asking that, but
now i know why

Because of some recent event i became stupid i think :D,

Like there’s a day that i went out to the beach all by myself and there’s a lot of dogs around. . . suddenly i ask myself… “Run!” then i Run. . . of course all of the dogs are chasing me. . . and when i escape from the first herd of dogs.. i run again to let another chase and run happen. . .
Kind of tired. . . but Fun

And there’s a day, i went to the beach at night. . . and just swim even though
people said it is very dangerous to do that. . .

And recently I can’t think well… it’s like something is calling me… disturbing and disoriented… But Fun

What’s happen ? I don’t know…
It just like when my heart said so,
I’ll just follow. . .

Don’t know if I will last long ? Wish Me Luck Then. . .
Tehehe… Noo..noo.. im not drunk, and not under control of drugs of course…

Just some chemistry within me…
That makes me Stupid

But It’s Fun

Anyway.. on my Birthday yesterday i was forced to sing a song. . . this is the
happy song about life…

Little Wonders - Rob Thomas

let it go,
let it roll right off your shoulder
don’t you know
the hardest part is over

let it in,
let your clarity define you
in the end
we will only just remember how it feels

our lives are made
in these small hours
these little wonders,
these twists & turns of fate

time falls away,
but these small hours,
these small hours still remain

let it slide,
let your troubles fall behind you
let it shine
until you feel it all around you

and i don’t mind
if it’s me you need to turn to
we’ll get by,
it’s the heart that really matters in the end

our lives are made
in these small hours
these little wonders,
these twists & turns of fate

time falls away,
but these small hours,
these small hours still remain

all of my regret
will wash away some how
but i can not forget
the way i feel right now

in these small hours
these little wonders
these twists & turns of fate
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away but these small hours
these small hours, still remain,
still remain
these little wonders
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away
but these small hours
these little wonders still remain

and i’m suck at singing a song hiehiehie