This Is Personal Ramblings :) you can see my 2 previous post for a better perverted content he he he

Sometimes people can have their doubt, positive thinking is good of course,
but sometimes… positive thinking can have a different meaning?

Consolidation… ?

Did my positive thinking is my consolidation for my failures? people tend
to consolidate right? so now I’m in doubt. For my positive thinking.

So the story start from my previous post about somehow I’ve been assigned to
some project, but then they change their mind… the Team leader met me and said

A lot of people recommend You and from what I believe…
You have Leadership talent, and it’s a rare thing….
So I think to assign you to this project would be unfair to your personal development…

And about Your grade..
Don’t worry about that, since you’re Overqualified…

Is that true, or just lip service to consolidate me? for me.. from my point of view…
I don’t have such ‘bragged quality’ of leadership, I’m not that smart and I’m not that good… The point that makes me in doubt is not about the project (since I’ve made the decision and I believe that every person have their own path right?) the thing that makes me in doubt is my quality..

In my life I always want to improve,
and I believe in never ended learning…
I need to do my best to achieve my goals…

But now..
these phase in my life makes me afraid..

I’m afraid with my Quality,
Did my lack of ability makes me not selected?
if it’s true, then what should I need to improve?
which knowledge then that I need to learn?
what effort that they expect from me?

I’m afraid with my attitude,
Did my attitude makes me not selected?
New people that don’t know me much will tend to think that I’m not that friendly :)
and my way to tell people the truth sometimes looks harsh :)
Is that so? if that the reason, how I can change myself?
Which attitude that I need to change?
What do they expect from me?

So in short… What do they expect from me? that is my worries :( what do I need to improve, that is one of my worries :(

those are my worries :(

Thank you for bear with me :)

[UPDATED]
I’m sorry…
I know and realize that I’m the one who get the highest score in the Test, and that
fact is not related to this post.

this post is not meant to brag about my self or make fun of my colleagues,
this is my personal ramblings and my worries :sob:

I’m the person who tend to positive about other people,
and tend to negative to myself.. hehe

And sometimes positive person can be in doubt tooo he he he