If I Write My Own Suicide Letter

Waah bahagianya hari ini this is a good day

so I’ll write one rambling fiction

 

School Is/Was

Eniwei, tadi saya comment di blognya tetangga soal UAN dan UNAS trus ga sengaja ngetik kata-kata dibawah ini… dan pas saya review saya terkejut “saya kesurupan apa tadi?” hehehe

From my point of View, school is the place where we grow, where we learn to socialize, where we feel pain and happiness together with our friends. Where we fall in love, where we feel love or broken-heart that’s where we learn about life…
That’s where we learn about the basics, where we should learn where we will go, where we learn about ourself by looking trough people’s perspective. where we learn that even though we’re not good at one thing, but we’re better on another thing… So when we graduate, we smile when we look back and move on with what we have, where we realize that we’re small, stupid and need another people to move on.

Menurut kalian? yang masih ngalamin ataupun yang uda ga sekolah sekolah itu apa sih

 

Love/Hate Myself

Personal ramblings….

 

HDD Optimization To The “Extreme” For Windows

WARNING! this is for an advanced user just few things that I do to Optimize the usage of my Hard-drive to the extreme

This things is extreme and may violate your OS warranty… so be a very carefull

 

Azalea For Stupid

Continue from Stupid For Azalea

They became a very good friends, Azalea always think that no one will understand her. She thinks only mind reader or Nostradamus is able to do that since her acting skills herself would deserve one or two nominees for Grammy.

But then here come a simple and naive man that we call Stupid in her life. As if slap her in her face with a simple word “Why do you look so Sad?” as if Stupid can read minds and look into her eyes so deep and know all the secret and pain she bear herself.

Yeah… Anyone would need someone?

Now… Stupid knows why Azalea always look so sad, our Dear Azalea is sad because she’s alone, born from a family with no love… eh… yeah sure, there was love there… but now… only fight, scream, blood, drugs, tears and no Faith. So at her young age she decides to run away from home… she said “I want to reach my dream myself”.

So now she’s staying with her relatives that sympathize on her…. but her relatives have their own problem to mind… so She know she must not bother them….

She does anything to survive. Nobody in her school know about her harsh life. She’s been working as a photo model, fast food restaurant’s clerk and sales promotion girl… you name it.

“You are strong”, Stupid compliment her

And Azalea know why Stupid could understand her. Stupid’s life was a normal life, but since child, He always believe that he can understand others.

Stupid was so alone, his problem is not his family or anything… it’s just because he was born different.

Different? that’s a big word Dear…

Big word? yep.. Stupid was “Slow”, it took him longer than anyone else to learn something new. it took him a lot to manage… to be “equal”

Retarded

Yep If you see Stupid now you would not believe me he was called with that “R” word, Stupid always told me “to be left behind and alone” is a painful feeling.

He knows it… almost a quarter of his life is falling behind, almost a quarter of his life is to be laugh at.. almost a quarter of his life is his effort to be “equal”…

It makes me feel a lot of pain to hear that word from Stupid… someone as great as him was called “Retarded”.

Great? that’s a bigger word Dear…

He is! He is someone I envy.. having that talent, that brain, that wisdom, that kindness…
it’s makes me want to “not believe” about everything he told me about his past, his past about his effort.

Could you believe someone who can match up with any conversation was called Retarded?

Could you believe someone who get high score so easily as if he don’t even have to do some effort was called “Slow”?

Could you believe someone who almost can answer all of my question as if he is a walking dictionary was “left-behind”?

I don’t want to believe that, but it’s true… it makes me realize… whoever I am, If I want it then I can do it…. it makes me Envy him even more you are a great man Bro….

In other word,

I believe someone like Stupid was born for Azalea… and someone like Azalea was born for Stupid… both of them have had face harsh life that makes them strong… they understand how it feel to be alone… they understand how it feel to catch up and they just never give up….

But I was wrong….

Gnite Azalea may angels lead you in,

I am damn wrong…

Gnite Stupid, I will always envy of you Bro

~eR